March 2 - Pure Money

Ich weiß nicht, warum dieses Lied mit einer Frau beginnt, die Deutsch spricht.

This becomes a soothing soft keyboard song with the smallest hint of menace in it. An odd late night sound with a vocal that seems like it's trying not to be heard in another room. It very much has the feeling of a road not taken, a form of musicality played with and then left where it was.

Much like John in his notes in This Year, I have a number of other paths my life could have taken, the biggest of which revolves around love. I married someone from another country and I moved there. Obviously that act meant that my life was different from that point onwards, although I feel like it was different in the plot not the overall style. I wonder about an Ian who didn't meet an Aja, or saw her only as an Internet friend. I wonder what became of him. Probably still a librarian, probably still writing something. No point wondering if he's happy any more than there is wondering if I'm happy.

He'd have been me, but he wouldn't have been me. Not so much someone I used to know as someone I never knew.